God given Strength

hello everyone, I wanted to let you know a little more about me, my life and the road that I have been on for the past couple of years. As I said (in about section) I am a mother and a wife. I am a writer and an author. I am also a student. I have spent the last two years dealing with the most difficult road I have been faced with in my entire life. You know, when you are a child, you always feel that everything you are going through is so hard and then as you get older you are faced with a new problem, or situation and then you say to yourself "this is definitely the hardest thing I have been through".

Well I come to say that I truly have been face with the most difficult road in my life over the past two years. Yet, despite everything (with the encouragement of my husband and family) I published my first book.

Almost two years ago, when I was 6 1/2 mo. pregnant I began to have problems with my health. I ended up having 2 surgeries within 4 days. It was hard to go in for the first surgery. I was so scared for my baby and me, but my husband (who is very supportive) pointed me in the right direction and lifted my faith. God did indeed take care of me and my baby during the surgery however, it was still such an emotional time for me and my family. After the first surgery, 4 days later I ended up having to have another surgery...talk about more emotional stress. Not just for me, but for my family. My children ( bless their hearts) were so concerned and crying their hearts out because they were worried and did not want me in the hospital. It was so hard for me to keep it together and not break down in front of them, yet I did. As soon as they left, I cried and prayed to God. He yet again, kept me and my baby safe during surgery, but that is not where my difficult road ended.

Over the past two years, I have had to continue this rough path of surgery after surgery. Watching my family go through just as much emotional pain as myself. This has been such an emotional roller coaster for us. I have continually had to go in for surgery after surgery because my body has been resistant to heal. Yet, despite how much I felt I could not go on with the pain anymore or go through it anymore...I always felt that there is no way I could muster up the strength to go through it again...God was there and continues to be there, giving me the much needed strength I need to get through it each and every time.

So I guess what I am trying to say is...When you are faced with a difficult road...Look to God and he will give you the strength you need to walk on and pass through your difficult road. I am not yet done with my difficult road and I have to say it HAS been a journey, but I know that God will continue to give me the strength to continue on.

Jana signing off