HERE IS ONE OF THE POEMS FROM MY BOOK "UNKNOWN LOVE"
I SEE A GIRL
I see a girl who is afraid of what she has become
A girl who feels, in this life, she has not won
I see a girl starving for attention
A girl reflecting desperation
Reaching to find love
Covering her body with a glove
I see a girl hiding behind a newfound mask
A girl feeling overwhelmed in every task
I see a girl who questions, will me, he save
A girl who is overcome by the crashing wave
I see a girl who needs to be rescued
From the life she has turned to, instead of the one she has valued
A girl who, to others, she has portrayed
The person she thought she left behind
I see a girl who, within herself, she has betrayed
The power, love and wealth that was given her, along with all man kind
I see a girl who is longing to be loved
A girl who is longing to be filled
I see a girl who reaches out
A girl who has some doubt
With the walk she finds herself on in this life
I see a girl who feels pain…who feels strife
I see a girl who searches to find what she must seek
A girl who finds herself getting weak
I see a girl who has strayed
A girl who, by the enemy, has been played
I see a girl who once was me
A girl who I no longer wish to be
I see a girl who I was in the past
A girl who will no longer last
I see a girl and that girl is me
Yet I long for the girl I strive to be
I see a girl that was sent from above
I see a girl that God does love.
By: Jana Loser (Adams)…May 17, 2004
Wednesday, October 31, 2007
Tuesday, October 30, 2007
Life and Government assistance
Hi, well I am here to say to all of you that many times we may feel that there isn’t any help from the government out there for the families that work and take care of their family. Truth be told…when I was a single mother, there were organizations that helped me in times of need. When I got married…the story changed. Even though my husband works, we still struggle a bit (due to my NOT being able to work). Because he works we are not able to get the help we need. The organizations and the government’s set standards of income guidelines put us over the limit…even though with our bills we have, and they only consider housing and your gas/electric. Well truth be told, we need help from time to time. We manage, but there are some services out there that we could benefit from, but “we make too much money”. Anyway, the bottom line is that in most cases, even though the working family work and take care of themselves, they have a hard time getting the help that they could use (while the families who don’t work, get to take advantage of the services out there).
Although the above is true, I recently found out that there are still a couple services that the working family qualify for. My family is one of the families who work and take care of ourselves. We do not qualify for many of the services that the government provides…However, the services that I found out about are the following…We found out that even though we are working, we qualify for the “angle tree” which will help us out with Christmas. And even though we can not get help with our rent and gas and electric (should we run into problems)…we do qualify for what they call in our area as EAP, which gives a small credit to our gas and electric.
So, I guess what I am trying to say is…Even though you (a working family) may not qualify for many of the government assistant programs out there that you feel you need…there are possibly some, a few, or a couple assistance programs out there that you could use. I thank God that I found out about these programs that we do qualify for.
JLA
Although the above is true, I recently found out that there are still a couple services that the working family qualify for. My family is one of the families who work and take care of ourselves. We do not qualify for many of the services that the government provides…However, the services that I found out about are the following…We found out that even though we are working, we qualify for the “angle tree” which will help us out with Christmas. And even though we can not get help with our rent and gas and electric (should we run into problems)…we do qualify for what they call in our area as EAP, which gives a small credit to our gas and electric.
So, I guess what I am trying to say is…Even though you (a working family) may not qualify for many of the government assistant programs out there that you feel you need…there are possibly some, a few, or a couple assistance programs out there that you could use. I thank God that I found out about these programs that we do qualify for.
JLA
Sunday, October 28, 2007
God given Strength
hello everyone, I wanted to let you know a little more about me, my life and the road that I have been on for the past couple of years. As I said (in about section) I am a mother and a wife. I am a writer and an author. I am also a student. I have spent the last two years dealing with the most difficult road I have been faced with in my entire life. You know, when you are a child, you always feel that everything you are going through is so hard and then as you get older you are faced with a new problem, or situation and then you say to yourself "this is definitely the hardest thing I have been through".
Well I come to say that I truly have been face with the most difficult road in my life over the past two years. Yet, despite everything (with the encouragement of my husband and family) I published my first book.
Almost two years ago, when I was 6 1/2 mo. pregnant I began to have problems with my health. I ended up having 2 surgeries within 4 days. It was hard to go in for the first surgery. I was so scared for my baby and me, but my husband (who is very supportive) pointed me in the right direction and lifted my faith. God did indeed take care of me and my baby during the surgery however, it was still such an emotional time for me and my family. After the first surgery, 4 days later I ended up having to have another surgery...talk about more emotional stress. Not just for me, but for my family. My children ( bless their hearts) were so concerned and crying their hearts out because they were worried and did not want me in the hospital. It was so hard for me to keep it together and not break down in front of them, yet I did. As soon as they left, I cried and prayed to God. He yet again, kept me and my baby safe during surgery, but that is not where my difficult road ended.
Over the past two years, I have had to continue this rough path of surgery after surgery. Watching my family go through just as much emotional pain as myself. This has been such an emotional roller coaster for us. I have continually had to go in for surgery after surgery because my body has been resistant to heal. Yet, despite how much I felt I could not go on with the pain anymore or go through it anymore...I always felt that there is no way I could muster up the strength to go through it again...God was there and continues to be there, giving me the much needed strength I need to get through it each and every time.
So I guess what I am trying to say is...When you are faced with a difficult road...Look to God and he will give you the strength you need to walk on and pass through your difficult road. I am not yet done with my difficult road and I have to say it HAS been a journey, but I know that God will continue to give me the strength to continue on.
Jana signing off
Well I come to say that I truly have been face with the most difficult road in my life over the past two years. Yet, despite everything (with the encouragement of my husband and family) I published my first book.
Almost two years ago, when I was 6 1/2 mo. pregnant I began to have problems with my health. I ended up having 2 surgeries within 4 days. It was hard to go in for the first surgery. I was so scared for my baby and me, but my husband (who is very supportive) pointed me in the right direction and lifted my faith. God did indeed take care of me and my baby during the surgery however, it was still such an emotional time for me and my family. After the first surgery, 4 days later I ended up having to have another surgery...talk about more emotional stress. Not just for me, but for my family. My children ( bless their hearts) were so concerned and crying their hearts out because they were worried and did not want me in the hospital. It was so hard for me to keep it together and not break down in front of them, yet I did. As soon as they left, I cried and prayed to God. He yet again, kept me and my baby safe during surgery, but that is not where my difficult road ended.
Over the past two years, I have had to continue this rough path of surgery after surgery. Watching my family go through just as much emotional pain as myself. This has been such an emotional roller coaster for us. I have continually had to go in for surgery after surgery because my body has been resistant to heal. Yet, despite how much I felt I could not go on with the pain anymore or go through it anymore...I always felt that there is no way I could muster up the strength to go through it again...God was there and continues to be there, giving me the much needed strength I need to get through it each and every time.
So I guess what I am trying to say is...When you are faced with a difficult road...Look to God and he will give you the strength you need to walk on and pass through your difficult road. I am not yet done with my difficult road and I have to say it HAS been a journey, but I know that God will continue to give me the strength to continue on.
Jana signing off
Friday, October 19, 2007
MY Introduction to my Book
I WANTED TO TAKE THE TIME RIGHT NOW TO POST THE INTRODUCTION TO MY BOOK "Unknown Love" THAT I PUBLISHED...
We all wonder, at some point in time, what it truly means to love and be loved. This book was created in love, about love and for love. It was created so that you may join me in my journey to find this unknown love. It is a story, a journal of my life from child to womanhood. As a young girl, on the brinks of many new emotions I had yet to explore, I began my journey. As I experienced new feelings and emotions, I wrote about them. I wrote of life, love and what I thought love to be. At the age of 14, I wrote my first poem. As I grew with each new experience in life, my poetry grew with me. In this book you will see my perceptions of what love was through the eyes of a young girl, a young woman, and through the eyes of a saved woman. My search for love took me through many triumphs and tribulations. I thought, on different occasions that I had finally found what many of us so desire. I thought I had found my true love. Many times I was wrong, yet I still searched to find this love so I could fill this strong void I felt in my heart. It’s funny, looking back on my life, I see now that the greatest love had been there all along. There were times when I felt there wasn’t any hope and times when I felt like giving up, but God was always there to bring me through. He was present in every aspect of my life but as a young girl who had fallen away from him and even a young woman, I didn’t realize it at the time.
Through each of my life’s experiences of love, pain and confusion I continued to write them down. There were many times throughout my life when God spoke to me through my poetry. He was showing me that he was there to love me, to comfort me and bring me happiness. He was reaching out to show me that he was there to give me a love much greater than what I could possibly find here on earth. God continued to reach out to me until one day I reached back. Through his ever- present love, he brought me back to him. He showered me with his love, as he did many times before. This time was different though, for my mind and heart were opened which allowed me to feel and experience his love to the fullest. The void I had been trying to fill all of these years was finally gone. God filled it with the most powerful love of all, His.
I hope in reading this it will give you hope and inspiration. I hope it will show you that you are not alone in your life’s journey. I pray you will see that no matter what you may be going through or have gone through in your journey, God is there. He is waiting and always reaching out to give you the greatest love of all. Be patient, for just as God has chosen for someone on earth to love you, he has also chosen the perfect time to bring that person to you. I pray that you seek and find God’s love first, for when you do your heart will be complete, as mine was when I found him once again.
We all wonder, at some point in time, what it truly means to love and be loved. This book was created in love, about love and for love. It was created so that you may join me in my journey to find this unknown love. It is a story, a journal of my life from child to womanhood. As a young girl, on the brinks of many new emotions I had yet to explore, I began my journey. As I experienced new feelings and emotions, I wrote about them. I wrote of life, love and what I thought love to be. At the age of 14, I wrote my first poem. As I grew with each new experience in life, my poetry grew with me. In this book you will see my perceptions of what love was through the eyes of a young girl, a young woman, and through the eyes of a saved woman. My search for love took me through many triumphs and tribulations. I thought, on different occasions that I had finally found what many of us so desire. I thought I had found my true love. Many times I was wrong, yet I still searched to find this love so I could fill this strong void I felt in my heart. It’s funny, looking back on my life, I see now that the greatest love had been there all along. There were times when I felt there wasn’t any hope and times when I felt like giving up, but God was always there to bring me through. He was present in every aspect of my life but as a young girl who had fallen away from him and even a young woman, I didn’t realize it at the time.
Through each of my life’s experiences of love, pain and confusion I continued to write them down. There were many times throughout my life when God spoke to me through my poetry. He was showing me that he was there to love me, to comfort me and bring me happiness. He was reaching out to show me that he was there to give me a love much greater than what I could possibly find here on earth. God continued to reach out to me until one day I reached back. Through his ever- present love, he brought me back to him. He showered me with his love, as he did many times before. This time was different though, for my mind and heart were opened which allowed me to feel and experience his love to the fullest. The void I had been trying to fill all of these years was finally gone. God filled it with the most powerful love of all, His.
I hope in reading this it will give you hope and inspiration. I hope it will show you that you are not alone in your life’s journey. I pray you will see that no matter what you may be going through or have gone through in your journey, God is there. He is waiting and always reaching out to give you the greatest love of all. Be patient, for just as God has chosen for someone on earth to love you, he has also chosen the perfect time to bring that person to you. I pray that you seek and find God’s love first, for when you do your heart will be complete, as mine was when I found him once again.
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