Like a king taking over a pawn
My heart has been trampled on
Broken, shattered and ripped to pieces
Tossed, whipped and thrown with no miss
To find the pieces of my heart
Where to begin, where to start?
Before me I see a field of green
Filled with a mirror of reflections the eye has not seen
With each little step that I so gently take
I keep in mind the mended heart that I must make
To gather the pieces that I once knew
I keep in mind the love that I have for you
Hidden and tucked away
Yet surface again, it will do one day
So with each new step I take a chance
I creep up closer to get a better glance
And as the shattered pieces float my way
I have hope that things will be better with each new day
While tiptoeing by as to not cause new damage
I feel it tearing down, this wall that was built as a collage
This heart that was shattered, I know I can salvage
So I sift through the blades of grass as if I were a savage
Yet like a move in a game
Each blade is different and not the same
And like this mirror filled field
My heart has caution and struggles to yield
My life is a pawn, each move is strategic
I know our love, to some, may seem pathetic
Yet I am not ready to store it in the attic
So as my search for these pieces goes on
Of what I need
I know is not greed
For I know our love is still there, and not gone
So with each new step, I’ll search more and more
For my heart that was ripped to pieces
My heart that was tore
In my heart I truly believe this
That one day, in the grass, I will see those reflections no more
My heart no longer will be sore
One day, in my hand, I’ll hold the pieces of my heart
One day it will truly be our new start.
Monday, November 5, 2007
Sunday, November 4, 2007
what Do I want?
I want the vibration that overtakes my body
Like what I feel any time you touch or even just look at me
That is what I want.
I want to feel this all day of every day.
I want to help you to explore this overpowering sensation
With every stoke and every motion.
I want to give you a feeling so undeniable
A feeling almost indescribable
I want to give you a feeling that moves from the soles of your feet
Then gradually ascends to the top of your head…
This, a feeling that just can’t be beat.
This intense journey begins with the slightest touch to the small of your back
Gliding along the curves of your body
Stroking every muscle with every part of me
I will kiss you in the crook of your neck
Then give your ear a little peck
In turning you over, I will shower your body with a mountain of kisses
I will work my way down the center of your chest
All the while, you’ll be pondering the rest
I’ll unbutton your pants with only my teeth
Then tease and caress you with all that is beneath
With the circling motion of my tongue along your member
I’ll give you an erotica ting numbness that will consume your every movement
Then with the sliding of my lips placed so delicately upon you
I’ll leave not one inch feeling any lack
And not to worry, there won’t be any slack
Exploring pleasures untold
We’ll work together and have an unbearable reaction explode
Waiting in anticipation for this moment will only make it that much stronger
For we know that one day we will have to wait no longer.
Like what I feel any time you touch or even just look at me
That is what I want.
I want to feel this all day of every day.
I want to help you to explore this overpowering sensation
With every stoke and every motion.
I want to give you a feeling so undeniable
A feeling almost indescribable
I want to give you a feeling that moves from the soles of your feet
Then gradually ascends to the top of your head…
This, a feeling that just can’t be beat.
This intense journey begins with the slightest touch to the small of your back
Gliding along the curves of your body
Stroking every muscle with every part of me
I will kiss you in the crook of your neck
Then give your ear a little peck
In turning you over, I will shower your body with a mountain of kisses
I will work my way down the center of your chest
All the while, you’ll be pondering the rest
I’ll unbutton your pants with only my teeth
Then tease and caress you with all that is beneath
With the circling motion of my tongue along your member
I’ll give you an erotica ting numbness that will consume your every movement
Then with the sliding of my lips placed so delicately upon you
I’ll leave not one inch feeling any lack
And not to worry, there won’t be any slack
Exploring pleasures untold
We’ll work together and have an unbearable reaction explode
Waiting in anticipation for this moment will only make it that much stronger
For we know that one day we will have to wait no longer.
STAYING TRUE
People seem to amaze me everyday. There are people who are honest, kind, loving, faithful and there are people who are the complete opposite. Many times, people who are genuinely true, faithful and honest in their relationships hold true to those aspects. They tell themselves that there is no way that they would ever be anything different than being faithful, honest and trustworthy. And there are the types of people who just don't care how they are or behave in a relationship...and the types that even though they say that they are going to remain faithful in their relationship...get faced with a situation that they seem to be harmless, and then they get caught up in lies and deceit, before they realize what they are doing or have done...
In any given situation...in any relationship...no matter what you may feel about your significant other and the commitment you have towards them, you never truly know how you will act until you are faced head on with a situation that seems harmless, and then becomes complicated. The complication does not come out right away...it takes time. You may be talking to a college at work (as just friends) or a close friend of whom you appreciate their companionship and in your mind it is harmless. You convince yourself that there is no harm and your significant other would have no problem with you having conversations with this other person...after all you are just friends...right?
This is the type of situation that will (in most cases) cause the most of faithful, honest and trustworthy of people to their end. In a situation such as this, a person is blind to the fact that the other person (who is just a friend)may indeed have hidden motives behind the friendship. Then, before the honest, faithful person knows it...they are in a web that they seem to be stuck and can't break free from. They have been sucked in by the lure of this friend, who has slowly placed subtle hints on the relationship going further than just friends with their sly and sneaky comments that end up building the self-esteem of the other party in the friendship. Before you know it...the faithful person has fallen into this trap and begins to make comments back to the other party and then the relationship progress until the "faithful" person, becomes "unfaithful" due to the this lure and the desire to see what the other person has to offer.
My point is, that even though some of us say to ourselves "I would never do that...I would never cheat on my partner, nor would I place myself in a situation to do so...I will always remain faithful, for I am in love...." etc. One will never truly know if that will most definitely be the outcome of their life, until they are face with a situation that places them at a crossroad...and with the decision to take the "right" path of honesty, faithfulness, and staying true to their relationship.
In any given situation...in any relationship...no matter what you may feel about your significant other and the commitment you have towards them, you never truly know how you will act until you are faced head on with a situation that seems harmless, and then becomes complicated. The complication does not come out right away...it takes time. You may be talking to a college at work (as just friends) or a close friend of whom you appreciate their companionship and in your mind it is harmless. You convince yourself that there is no harm and your significant other would have no problem with you having conversations with this other person...after all you are just friends...right?
This is the type of situation that will (in most cases) cause the most of faithful, honest and trustworthy of people to their end. In a situation such as this, a person is blind to the fact that the other person (who is just a friend)may indeed have hidden motives behind the friendship. Then, before the honest, faithful person knows it...they are in a web that they seem to be stuck and can't break free from. They have been sucked in by the lure of this friend, who has slowly placed subtle hints on the relationship going further than just friends with their sly and sneaky comments that end up building the self-esteem of the other party in the friendship. Before you know it...the faithful person has fallen into this trap and begins to make comments back to the other party and then the relationship progress until the "faithful" person, becomes "unfaithful" due to the this lure and the desire to see what the other person has to offer.
My point is, that even though some of us say to ourselves "I would never do that...I would never cheat on my partner, nor would I place myself in a situation to do so...I will always remain faithful, for I am in love...." etc. One will never truly know if that will most definitely be the outcome of their life, until they are face with a situation that places them at a crossroad...and with the decision to take the "right" path of honesty, faithfulness, and staying true to their relationship.
Saturday, November 3, 2007
What Do You See?
WHAT DO YOU SEE
Null and void I walk around
An empty shield
Hesitant to yield
I try so hard to listen for the sound
Yet all I hear is the cracking of the ground
It’s hard to show emotion
It’s hard to show devotion
I know not how to show it anymore
For through the years, my heart has grown sore
It’s so hard to release my emotions and let you in
For it goes much deeper into a life of sin
It goes much deeper than what is felt at this moment
It goes much deeper, into a heart that has been, for so long dormant
Many days I feel like breaking
I feel the cracks edging
Afraid of the day, that surface, the cracks they will
In fear of that day, I get a chill
Broken thoughts of an innocent child
Broken thoughts of that innocence defiled
Trust of loved ones, was trust in sin
And now it’s so hard to let the downpour of trust rush in
You say you see an angle
Yet I am no angle
If you only knew of the things that I have done
If you only knew what was present in this life that had begun
You say you see a rock
Yet what lay before you is a being in shock
Scared to let go
Scared to let show
This woman, you say you know.
You say you see before you a woman on innocence
A woman with an illuminating presence
Yet a mask covers her face
This woman of a different race
She beats to a different beat
Her body filled with much heat
Before you, stands a woman of disgrace
A woman tainted in the most unsuspecting of place
A woman abused in every way
A woman who struggles to start fresh with each day
You see before you, a woman who is strong
Yet, this is a woman who feels she has done everything wrong
With nothing but pain
With nothing but despair
Do you see a woman who goes by a different name?
Do you see a woman who has discerning care?
This woman that stands before you is trapped in a cage
This woman is a black-panther ready to pounce with much rage
Ready to divulge what is seen
Ready to make what is past, what is present, a vague dream
For every time this panther is set free
It is hard to conceive in the mind what is seen
You see a rock
Yet what lies in-front of you is a round block
Inside is a child that caresses each side
A child is trapped inside.
A child of confusion
A child full of delusion
A child born into a panther
A child who would rather
Have lived a life of peace
A life with no physical grief
A child who was raped of her innocence
A child longing for God’s presence
A child who lived to tell the tale of her murder
A child who you now call a survivor
You see a rock, you see an angle
Yet what you don’t see is the heart that so easily did mangle
Two questions I ask of you
Two answers, I only hope are true
Do you see me for the woman I am?
Do you see me for who I am?
By: Jana Adams
Null and void I walk around
An empty shield
Hesitant to yield
I try so hard to listen for the sound
Yet all I hear is the cracking of the ground
It’s hard to show emotion
It’s hard to show devotion
I know not how to show it anymore
For through the years, my heart has grown sore
It’s so hard to release my emotions and let you in
For it goes much deeper into a life of sin
It goes much deeper than what is felt at this moment
It goes much deeper, into a heart that has been, for so long dormant
Many days I feel like breaking
I feel the cracks edging
Afraid of the day, that surface, the cracks they will
In fear of that day, I get a chill
Broken thoughts of an innocent child
Broken thoughts of that innocence defiled
Trust of loved ones, was trust in sin
And now it’s so hard to let the downpour of trust rush in
You say you see an angle
Yet I am no angle
If you only knew of the things that I have done
If you only knew what was present in this life that had begun
You say you see a rock
Yet what lay before you is a being in shock
Scared to let go
Scared to let show
This woman, you say you know.
You say you see before you a woman on innocence
A woman with an illuminating presence
Yet a mask covers her face
This woman of a different race
She beats to a different beat
Her body filled with much heat
Before you, stands a woman of disgrace
A woman tainted in the most unsuspecting of place
A woman abused in every way
A woman who struggles to start fresh with each day
You see before you, a woman who is strong
Yet, this is a woman who feels she has done everything wrong
With nothing but pain
With nothing but despair
Do you see a woman who goes by a different name?
Do you see a woman who has discerning care?
This woman that stands before you is trapped in a cage
This woman is a black-panther ready to pounce with much rage
Ready to divulge what is seen
Ready to make what is past, what is present, a vague dream
For every time this panther is set free
It is hard to conceive in the mind what is seen
You see a rock
Yet what lies in-front of you is a round block
Inside is a child that caresses each side
A child is trapped inside.
A child of confusion
A child full of delusion
A child born into a panther
A child who would rather
Have lived a life of peace
A life with no physical grief
A child who was raped of her innocence
A child longing for God’s presence
A child who lived to tell the tale of her murder
A child who you now call a survivor
You see a rock, you see an angle
Yet what you don’t see is the heart that so easily did mangle
Two questions I ask of you
Two answers, I only hope are true
Do you see me for the woman I am?
Do you see me for who I am?
By: Jana Adams
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Thursday, November 1, 2007
THANK YOU LORD
THANK YOU LORD
Just when there seemed to be no hope
You showed me once again how to cope
Once again
You came in
You shinned your light
And showed me how to fight
Through many times of feeling alone
Through many times I’ve felt I have no home
Through many times of happiness and joy
Through many times I’ve felt I want to deploy
Through many times I’ve felt I wanted to end my life
Just so I would no longer have to endure the strife
You’ve showed yourself true
You always came through
You’ve showed me that there is always one I can count on
You’ve showed me that you are here and not gone
With all the pain and sorrow I’ve felt
In the end, on my knees I have knelt
I’ve begged of you, to end this pain
I’ve begged of you to dry up this falling rain
When I’ve felt I can’t go on
You’ve been there present, to feed your faun
Nourishing and feeding your delicate creature
Filling with grace and mercy, as to nurture
I thank you Lord for what you have done
For making me feel as though, in this life, I have won
For showing me my life has only just begun
For helping me to realize, I am not alone
For the constant reminder that before me awaits a blessed home
Thank you Lord for bringing me through
Everything I couldn’t, if I didn’t have you
Thank you for loving
Thank you for caring
Thank you for your open arms
Thank you for protecting me from all harms
Thank you Lord for helping me to press on
Thank you Lord for ever showing me you are here, yet not gone
In this life I have truly struggled
And without you, my life would have been smuggled
Through all the sins
You still came in
Through all the sorrow and pain that dwells
You gave me a heart that with love still swells
I thank you Lord for opening up the doors to your kingdom
I thank you Lord for giving me wisdom
I thank you Lord for giving me discernment
I thank you Lord for your gift, a wonderful present
I thank you Lord for being there
Through all the pain and trials in my life
I thank you Lord for showing me that you do care
I thank you Lord for saving my life.
By: Jana Adams
December 5, 2006
Just when there seemed to be no hope
You showed me once again how to cope
Once again
You came in
You shinned your light
And showed me how to fight
Through many times of feeling alone
Through many times I’ve felt I have no home
Through many times of happiness and joy
Through many times I’ve felt I want to deploy
Through many times I’ve felt I wanted to end my life
Just so I would no longer have to endure the strife
You’ve showed yourself true
You always came through
You’ve showed me that there is always one I can count on
You’ve showed me that you are here and not gone
With all the pain and sorrow I’ve felt
In the end, on my knees I have knelt
I’ve begged of you, to end this pain
I’ve begged of you to dry up this falling rain
When I’ve felt I can’t go on
You’ve been there present, to feed your faun
Nourishing and feeding your delicate creature
Filling with grace and mercy, as to nurture
I thank you Lord for what you have done
For making me feel as though, in this life, I have won
For showing me my life has only just begun
For helping me to realize, I am not alone
For the constant reminder that before me awaits a blessed home
Thank you Lord for bringing me through
Everything I couldn’t, if I didn’t have you
Thank you for loving
Thank you for caring
Thank you for your open arms
Thank you for protecting me from all harms
Thank you Lord for helping me to press on
Thank you Lord for ever showing me you are here, yet not gone
In this life I have truly struggled
And without you, my life would have been smuggled
Through all the sins
You still came in
Through all the sorrow and pain that dwells
You gave me a heart that with love still swells
I thank you Lord for opening up the doors to your kingdom
I thank you Lord for giving me wisdom
I thank you Lord for giving me discernment
I thank you Lord for your gift, a wonderful present
I thank you Lord for being there
Through all the pain and trials in my life
I thank you Lord for showing me that you do care
I thank you Lord for saving my life.
By: Jana Adams
December 5, 2006
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